all this talk has got me to thinking - should i get into it? should i take the chance? juggle with fire that's my own feelings, which i cannot control? should i follow it and then take the chance of suffering? if only i could go into it with no worries, but what was perfect is no longer has made things a bit more okay. This imperfection has allowed for things to ease a bit, so although disturbing, required. am i letting things happen too fast? should i stop it? is this the wrong decision and am i only going to end up one friend less and time-wasted?