it's time to reanalyze what i've thought i could do. time to get rid of the great goals i had so easily planned out for myself. the things that i looked at what i thought would be the future and planned my life out based on the things i thought i'd be able to do. i guess things dont work out that way... i always thought i could do these things but i guess it's just too much. i guess those things are only possible for the people who are better, and i guess that doesnt exactly include me anymore. i need some inspiration, and i'm getting sick again, which, sadly, means i'm working myself up to my full potential.