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it is the eleventh of June, year two thousand and seven.
the first hour of summer has past by
and i have spent it on the computer;; on the internet, and on myspace, facebook, and whatnot.
and a series of links have led me to my blogspot! where i have not yet found the energy to blog in.
however, i felt inspired [by gunny's blog] so i feel as if i should type my innermost random thoughts and feelings with a sticky keyboard that my mom jacked from my computer to bring downstairs since she spilled nail polish remover all over hers.
i watched "BLOOD & CHOCOLATE" today on a blockbuster with sally.
on Saturday, we [Kathleen, Michelle, Cheryl, i] went to sixflags. fun stuff.
and being broke at six flags is not the most exciting thing ever.
i added a "married in friendship to Cheryl" ring to my ring collection.


and i have been thinking....
u love whatever it is u want to love you back. whatever it is that may bind you to that belief of "love" however is not, for it is only a want, of that that could not be this love therefore your love is perhaps not a love at all, but a want for a love that could perhaps not even be. then what is this "love?" shall i even speak of this love that i know not of? if my whole perception of this love is simply a love of a want, then where shall i find this love? shall it find me? if another doesn't have this love either, how could it find me, if under the same circumstance, i cannot find it? could it find me if it already knows the love it is searching with? can you truly love more than once? how could you love 110% twice? what is this mysterious action/being/description that i find myself to be so curious of?
i have yet to encounter "that love," but i have experienced "THE love," and that is the love of God. call me crazy